I think things are finally getting back on track for me. It's been one hell of a month.
I've been really struggling with myself lately, and just with life in general. I've been doing a lot of things I shouldn't, like avoiding the people I need to surround myself with most. Completely isolating myself. I think that's about the most unhealthy thing I can do for myself right now.
I came so close to relapsing back into my self-destructive ways. There have been several times in the past couple weeks where it would have been so easy for me to either pick up a blade or get completely smashed. But somehow, with the help of whatever higher power or god or whatever it is watching over me, I didn't. I'm not drunk, and I haven't hurt myself.
Today, I started getting back into good habits. Went out this afternoon with friends, and actually socialized. I did a lot of thinking, made some decisions.
And on Tuesday, I'll still be able to celebrate 8 months free of self-harming. :)